Discouragement

Posted on September 15, 2017 by Yolanda

Desiring to walk into the day with cheerful acceptance of all the hard moments,

Investing energy and prayers and all the will-power one can muster and

Still saying things, doing things that prove how broken the insides are.

Crying uncontrollable tears that stream salt water across burning cheeks

Of shame at being found out, that still inside there is a struggle to be all that I take

Upon myself to be and crying “Why, God, after I try so hard and submit to your

Restoring grace and humbling breaking am I still not who I want to be.”

And my emotions rock dangerous, a hurricane out of control, even when I walk calm, I

Groan within, wondering when the lava in the volcano will blow the top and

Erupt all over everyone. Again. But it’s in the leaking of tears, laughter and words that I

Manage to see some semblance of peace. And blazing bright shines the truth, an

Enemy fires these feelings of inadequacy to detract me from growing more

Near to the Father’s own heart—oh, loving Father Heart that longs

To fill the cracks of my humanity with His all-consuming grace.

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